midnight letter to God

Dear God,,
what should I do?

I just wanna make them proud to have a daughter like me. I always try to do everything they want coz I know they don’t want something bad happens to me, even sometimes I find it hard to accept but I always try my best, and also coz I believe it must be the best thing You give me..

But now it seems I failed to carve a beautiful smile on their faces. Whereas they deemed I’ve been mature and gift me a chance to try new things without their intervention, but I failed to take the chance. I tried to get out from the way they make to me and thought it would definitely keep them proud of me. Just because someone’s opinions, your pride to me collapse directly. You believed in otherman say than my effort, and you're increasingly worrying me more than ever. I feel like a kid who can’t do anything without her parents help.

I don’t wanna make you always worry about me. I wanna make you believe that I could do everything by myself in my way. I just wanna make you always happy and proud to have a daughter like me..

And I spent few hours to think it all but not found the way out.
ooh God, please tell me what to do now ..